my
bed just happens to feel like the safest place to be at the moment.
not yours, but mine.
I dont know why I was crying, maybe because this situation seems so fucked at the moment that I cant help but over think it.
I
dislike waiting
I dislike waiting on people
I dislike waiting on people I’m unsure about.
I dislike the feeling of my heart racing all day
I dislike how im feeling at the moment.
self-suf·fi·cient
–adjective
1. able to supply one’s own or its own needs without external assistance: The nation grows enough grain to be self-sufficient. 2. having extreme confidence in one’s own resources, powers, etc.: He was self-sufficient, and always reminded you of it.
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this is what I have been trying to be since apparently I cant ask my mom for help anymore. Which isnt a bad thing. besides not having money, being able to do my own thing will help me in a way so I could stop feeling so helpless.. I know that being 19 and still not knowing how to do laundry sounds bad but I’m learning now haha




